Verbal Diarrhea

This is meant to be a private journal so if you are seeing this and have any ethics at all, could you please let me know what to do to make it private? This technically inept blogger would greatly appreciate it.

so here goes, i am hardly going to bother with punctuation and proper grammar, spelling will be optional as well. all i want to do in this blog is spit out the crap that infests my brain so i can be more normal when interacting with the world the rest of the time.

i'm in recovery. not for drugs, though it feels like a drug, not for alcohol, though it has definitely been a depressant in my life, not for sexual deviance, though it has certainly impacted my sex life, but for overeating. our modern world worships food and nowhere more than in the united states, my home. you need only look at any form of media to know this. for cripe's sake, we have a network dedicated to food alone and good luck finding a news show without a cooking segment. if not included within a show or within the content of a newspaper or magazine, you will certainly find commercials that are calculated to make you worship some food item to the point you drag yourself across town to experience it. it's the cruelest of jokes to be addicted to overeating. you don't have to have a cigarette to survive. you don't have to have a beer to survive. you don't have to have sex to survive, though some men might argue that point. but you absolutely cannot survive without food. you must eat, typically several times each day, in order to continue functioning on this planet. diet programs prescribe the exact items and quantities you must eat to lose weight. this has the exact opposite effect to what is needed by those of us addicted to overeating. instead of getting us to think about and do other things, diets increase our obsession with food. which virtually always ends in an eventual breakage of diet, gaining it all back and typically a minimum of five more lbs on top.